I grew up in a small town above the Arctic Circle, scared most of the time but moving nonetheless. Generational trauma, shame, rejection, isolation, and abuse were among my childhood gifts. For a long time it all curdled into shame inhibiting my life force. My passion couldn't find its way into the world.
What shame does is invert your life force back onto itself. It turns into self-doubt, indecision, overwhelm, and chronic dissatisfaction. You stop trusting the fundamental goodness of your own impulses. Without that trust, you stop living forward. You attempt to live backward into a future that is nothing but the recurrence of the past. Each new person becomes a revisiting of an old wound. Each new opportunity, a preemptive brace for disappointment.
When you stop living backward, something opens up. The difference between a person who is perpetually in their own way and one who isn't is a fullness of being and the ability to continually let go of the past and move into the future with trust, curiosity, and openness.
That hasn't always been easy for me either.
I've spent my career working with scientists, engineers, and deep thinkers - people who live in their heads. I'm one of them. And I know how easy it is to use big ideas as a shield, to stay busy analyzing while quietly avoiding whatever's actually bothering you. You feel clever and nothing gets resolved.
I've also spent years in meditation and silent retreats, exploring nearly every healing practice a determined person can find, and no matter how far you travel in search of the "insight that will unlock it all", it always comes back to the same thing: sitting with your feelings.
I am here to help you towards clarity through radical honesty and radical acceptance. I'm good at making sense of mess: the confusion, the overwhelm, the going-in-circles, the not-knowing-what-you-want. My work is to help you find the Ariadne's thread and follow it back to who you are and what you actually want.
I'm direct. I'll point at what you're using to dodge the hard stuff. I'll name what's not adding up.
I found my way through it. I'm here because I know you can too.